I only recently realized that my personality is not meant for educational success. I’m not a fighter. I frankly don’t care enough about anything to fight for it. The only reason I’ve gotten as far as I have… is because I want to get it over with so i can play around later. Now that I’ve realized that I can never just “play”, I don’t know what I want to do. Penn wants me to take 5 classes my freshman year. I don’t want to drop out of college. That would be the second biggest failure in my life, behind the failure to cultivate myself into a good person.